the whatever symphony
there are some weeks where I swear He is audibly talking to me.it started with this song that captured my heart:
"...there are times when you might feel aimless and can’t see the places where you belong......but you will find that there is a purpose...it’s been there within you all along...and when you’re near itYou can almost hear it.it’s like a symphony just keep listening and pretty soon you’ll start to figure out your part everyone plays a piece and there are melodies in each one of us, oh, it’s glorious you will know how to let it ring out ...as you discover who you are others around you will start to wake up...to the sounds that are in their hearts...it’s so amazing what we’re all creatingit’s like a symphony just keep listening and pretty soon you’ll start to figure out your part everyone plays a piece and there are melodies in each one of us, oh, it’s gloriousand as you feel, the notes build, you will seeit’s like a symphony just keep listening and pretty soon you’ll start to figure out your part everyone plays a piece and there are melodies in each one of us, oh, it’s glorious..."
a really good symphony has skilled musician's weaving melodies and harmonies in tune so much so that your heart swells.that song started the baby thought that somehow He's weaving our lives...like He care about the "whatever."s.then, this week followed with the knowledge of a friend who was headed into uncertainty and no one being able to prevent it.I'm not sure I could head into uncertainty without feeling the need to protect myself and be "whatever."I could still hear that baby thought and wondered what He thought about our desire to be "whatever." even when life seemed to dictate it.then, the actual topic of "whatever" began the next day.then followed the next day with a conversation with a far away friend who was feeling dried up.feeling very "whatever."deep in my own thoughts with Him on sunday morning I posted this:
I had been thinking about people around me...and even myself at times...when "whatever." wins.I walked away from that thought resolved to not reside in "whatever." at least for not very long. :)later that afternoon, I got to play & sing this:
...when the rain comes down I can feel Your grace flow through me without a sound. nothing is certain, but I'm certain of You. pull back this curtain, let Your light in this room and all that's true, I find in You. the more I drink of Your word. the more I thirst for You. ...when the world dissolves and the sun just flickers out... I will write Your word upon my heart, oh Lord when the stars crash down at the end of the age I can feel Your touch as You wipe my tears away. building a sorrowful loveliness out of the darkness - out of this furnace I find You.
at the end of the night I did.I got to listen to my friend talk true words that encouraged.it was nothing new...just needed to be heard and He was speaking through him.
"...don't be surprised is you suffer in this world, be surprised if you don't....be resolved, arm yourself - He's not joking when He says it's war....make a clean break - you can't follow after Him and live like you used to....expect resistance - following Him IS radical. people will not understand you because light ALWAYS changes the dark....SEE the big picture. LIVE the big picture...preserve your sanity by being sober-minded. the opposite of sanity is mania = the equivilant of being possesed. (yeah, I'd say I feel this sometimes....cuhrazay.) :)...love others earnestly. love is simply a decision to choose someone other than yourself....be hospitable. let people into your life...these are divine interruptions....DO WHAT GOD MADE YOU TO DO. (yeah, he said those words OUT LOUD.)He gives endless numbers of gifts. and we have every gift we need this side of heaven...unfortunately not everyone uses their gifts. FIND WHAT GOD MADE YOU TO DO AND GET BUSY DOING IT. your giftedness can only be discovered while using them. GET YOUR HANDS DIRTY.and then the last thing he said was this:if you don't heed these eleven verses in first peter, be prepared to be overwhelmed.He doesn't overwhelm us. we overwhelm ourselves when we live outside of His plan."
as my friend emily says, "He found me" in the back row in the conference center.after his words were still resonating in my heart,I got to have yet another good conversation with a girl who struggles with "whatever." and is finding her way back.yes, He is talking to me.weaving a symphony with my week this week.slowly, I'm learning that you need the dissonance to get to the resolution...it's much more beautiful that way.a "whatever." symphony.