t-shirt and jeans
I'm sick.Yup, I just admitted it...sick.But getting better today. :)Being in bed for hours on end allows you to think thoughts freely or at least as much as sudafed & benedryl allows...I've been thinking about blogging and twitter and instagram and facebook and what the point of it all is.I've been thinking about seasons of life and about people I've seen do each season well and not so well.I've been thinking about relationships and the different seasons of relationships and friendships.I've been doing all this thinking.thinking...and watching an exorbitant amount of tbs & diy television. :)I hadn't seen it yet, but the sex and the city movie came on tbs and I decided to watch it.For all of you who just gasped audibly at a pastor's wife watching such vulgarity ;p,my disclaimer is that it was on tv - so no "f" bombs and sexy sex scenes...plus,I actually learned something and encouraged some already mini-thought into a full grown thoughts.this is the scene that gripped me and I admitted to shedding a tear over it:*there is one un-classy f-bomb...just so you know before you push play*http://youtu.be/1mCvxtNX5BAit wasn't the fact that she was left at the alter that gripped me - although that would be horrific.it wasn't the visual beauty of her and her friends gowns that gripped me - although it would be fantastic to play dress up with them.it wasn't the romanticism of the groom going the wrong way on a one way street...no, it was the reaction of her friends around her when tragedy hit that gripped me.each of them played out a different role...the one in the blue dress felt her friends pain. partly because she unintentionally helped inflict it...but she FELT what her friend felt.the one in the red dress took charge and made sure she didn't have to feel and immediately moved to action.and the one in the black dress went into uber-proctection mode trying to make sure she didn't have to feel anymore.how does all this thinking and watching scandalous television relate to me?in a couple ways...
1. solidifying (somewhat) what this blog can be for.
and if for nothing else, for me. :)my website is kind-of like the spiffed up me...what I'm about professionally and who you're hiring.twitter is my random thoughts tied in with instagram - my random sights.facebook can be and I'm working towards a more community enviroment...a day to day place.but this blog?this is about me...what I see, what I think...the t-shirt and jeans jen.for a while I didn't think it should be that way...I felt guilty for posting my thoughts. (I know, I'm weird.)but here's the conclusion to that weird thought...you have to read it if don't read it if you don't want to. :)I've already previously concluded that my life tends to be a bit "fish-bowl-ish" (more on that some other time)but I like to write...write about my sessions, my family, my favorites, my not-so-muches. I simply like to write.and if you'd feel compelled to read what I write, good. if not, that's okay...I'm not writing for you per-se anyways. :)
2. it encouraged me in my relationships.
"love one another as I have loved you. greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends."you're going to go through seasons with relationships.I used to be ignorant of the fact that I thought that all real relationships last in the day to day for forever.that's just not possible this side of heaven...but I can love them in the season that they're currently in.there's freedom in that.the only relationship that has only gotten better with time, aside from my relationship with Jesus, is my relationship with matt.and I'm okay with that.but much like other categories in my life, I go to different relationships for different things.the bottom line is, I'm blessed with the relationships I do have.I could think of good friends to fill each of the dresses...maybe they wouldn't wear the same dresses everyday, but I have each color dress in my life. :)
3. beauty has many faces.
everyone is unique and somehow relate-able in different ways at different time.and we all shine at different moments in life. some in great ways, some in smaller subtler ways.I love getting to do what I do...I love to write about what I see, to photograph what I see...to live the life I live.I know full well that traditional beauty is fleeting, but I'm not going to lie and say it isn't fun to photograph...it is.but the beauty that I'm drawn to more and more the older I get, is the beauty below the surface.you have to look deeper for that beauty. 