blessed. :)

 

okay, this is an "honest jen" post. :)I've been feeling like I've lost Christmas.go here.  do this.  say this.  be this.  want this.  go, go, GO!  smile!it got so overwhelming that I seriously started to tear up when I listened to this song.yeah, my dork status just rose.  I know. :)I was talking with my friend this week about the busy-ness of life.she would know what busy is...four kidsPLUS six grandkids (one who was born a week ago!)PLUS a pre-school she runsPLUS a small group of around twenty girlsPLUS three co-leadersPLUS she a fantastic wife, daughter, sister and friend to many.after comiserating for a few moments of how tired each of us were,she amazed me with her conclusion to all of this.she felt overwhelmingly blessed.  blessed.I was somewhat startled and shamed.you see, how often do I go about my day thinking "I HAVE to" for all the things I do?rather than "I GET to"?how often do I think that if I don't get to all of my to-do list then I fail?ALL the time.it becomes about me.  and then I feel swallowed by my life, rather than blessed by my life.I get so wrapped up in being busy, instead of being blessed.I read this post by jon acuff this week.  and the last couple paragraphs are resonating with me."We are not shown a steady parade of heroeswho became even more heroic in the hands of God.We are shown a parade of failures who found forgiveness.Losers who found love.Hopeless who found hope.Christmas is a loud season, but hopefully, you’ll hear the real song.It’s one of redemption. My redemption. Your redemption. Our redemption."yes.  I am blessed.  blessed. it's not about me.  or my to-do lists.  or my "have to's".it's about Him.  and my "get to's".  :)