“the Road goes ever on and on down from the door where it began. now far ahead the Road has gone, and I must follow, if I can, pursuing it with eager feet, until it joins some larger way where many paths and errands meet. and what then? I cannot say.” J.R.R. Tolkien, The Fellowship of the RingI almost skipped another monday mind dump day...knowing my melancholy thoughts weren't light and encouraging per se...but this is what is on my mind this monday night.this and the wonder as to how a truth-filled mind becomes debased.debased.bad becomes good...good becomes bad.I'm looking for the louder Voice.the journey.the narrow road.there is no other recourse but to continue...of course.I'm praying the eagerness will begin again in the morning. :)so instead of realizing that there are those who are no longer on the Road with me,I'll pause.......I'll smile at the knowledge that those who are still on the Road have chosen to be.it makes the Road less long...less lonely.and it makes my heart light again. :)echo's of last night laughing on lindsay road with young friends I love.talking on the phone with a forever friend, no matter how many months and miles are in between.being myself with my "armor bearer"...never having to re-explain, doubt, wonder, or be anything but myself.knowing that in the morning, she will talk to me and I will be sane again for another day.and best of all, going to sleep tonight with my head on his heartbeat...beating my jumbled thoughts into a more manageable straight line.today, tomorrow, always... :)